I Am Very Overwhelmed but Not Ready To Give Up...Yet...?

God Bless you! I'm sorry you're having to go through this, expecially as a teenager. I'm not a real doc, but what came to my mind was to find someone who could teach you meditation. I know it would be hard, but I was thinking that if you could try to calm down the brain, just calm ... then perhaps you could gain even just a little bit of control over this. You obviously deal with high stress because of this also, but if there are any other stressors, try to let the worry of them go, so they can't affect you so much. Also, just as an added bonus, I don't know how your family is, but truly hugs really help emotionally. God bless you!